So I just re-visited my old dev account. I've had a dev account for maybe 6 ish years now, and I realized that in these years I have only ever written less than 30 journals. Probably somewhere around 20. Across all the accounts I've had. I don't like writing down my thoughts. I don't really have journals in real life. I might regret it latter, maybe not. I have a few journals that have been written in a few times, and whenever I read the entries, it always make me so depressed. I realize I still have the same general thoughts, and that scares me. I feel like I haven't progressed much. If anything, I have retreated more into my self. I'm just scared to put my self out there. I don't like people knowing me. Really knowing me. Which is kind of ironic since I live with 6 other people who are really out there people. not out there crazy, but really easy to get to know and talk to, and I am the total opposite. And when I do say stuff about me, I lie half the time because I don't like people knowing about me. I really don't know what to do. I thought college would help me open up, get to know more people, but I think it has had the opposite effect. I don't have any real friends. I feel so isolated, even though my house is always busy with people.